“When it comes down to it she's the warda (flower) of our group”
was what on of my group-mates said to me while we were joking around in class, to which my other group-mate replied
“ Yeah I know, why do you think I'm so nice to her”
I may not have shown it at the time , but that really made me smile. Even now when I think back to it, I can feel a smile on my face. It's the small things like this that really make me see how lucky I am to have these people in my group, because even though I may have complained about feeling left out I know that my group are like my family. It makes me want to shut down this blog and hit myself for the times I gave out about them. I know, such a small comment made such a huge impact on me. But that's the kind of person I am, even if I get angry and a have a quick temper, when apologised to, I forgive quickly and don't like holding grudges. My group is like my family, and alhumdillah we all get along so well, recently there was a new addation to our group. A girl from 3rd year is doing this module with us and even she commented how she loved the vibe and atmosphere our group had , saying that it was rare that a group got along so well.
On a more serious note, I'm hanging by the edge of my teeth from failing this year. It's true that you only realise how important something is to you until it is(or nearly ) taken away from you. I really don't want to fail, but somehow I cant seem to pass an exam only after repeating it, which means that I always have more than one exam to study for in a month. I would feel so guilty if I failed as well, because I know I can do better but just can't seem to be able to pass the material on time. As well as the guilt of disappointing my parents. That is enough to make me cringe, because lately my mom has been talking to me about how important it is to pass this year, and when I talked to my dad about a tutorial I needed help with I could tell how proud of me he was, for being him to be able to give me scenarios and me try to come up with a logic explanation. God help me :(
Hello there! :) thanks for following my story. I'm so sorry to read that you've been struggling with your studies. It's always good to have a supportive group like this one so I hope things work out! Best of luck. :)
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